Letter to a Lost Friend
Dear my beloved friend,
a steadfast brother not by blood
or legality, as society directs it is
to be
written and signed cold
with a pen knife to my heart.
“I love you and I miss you”, I want
to say, to speak with
a voice
heard but I’m in another dimension
echoing into the wilderness
to where I must live in this world.
Alien is the language I speak
and think through a different tint
of how I care deeply in my heart for the
steadfast friendly rock that you were.
“I miss you, I love you”
but I come with peace to your family
with treasured respect that flavours
who you are to me as roots
boring deep into my past as a sturdy
foundation
with a physicality from another dimension
that’s certainly not sexual love,
grasping at the wind, lost,
alone, because
society’s language has no words,
story or ability to frame it
for myself or to confide, no one speaks
this heretical love
that isn’t loyalties of blood
or my soulmate alone,
and to understand it myself in order to walk on
to firm ground
that suddenly melted away in a second’s glance, flowing
further and further away.
“I love you”
and you mean the world to me,
because you were there,
do you hear me?
No I don’t mean sexually
or falling in love with my one and only.
Is it so wrong to care that doesn’t flutter
with the whims of romance,
but I had no translator.
#amatonormativity #friendship #aromantic #queer
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